Rahul Mahesh
A LIST OF PASSABLE WISHES
One of these days I shall be fine,
Tears won't fall so easily.
My hands would stop to shiver,
My thoughts would stay tranquil.
I will see not the clouds,
Neither the rains nor thunderstorms.
I will see the misty morning sun,
The dewdrops on the flower bed.
I wonder when that shall be,
The day my heart stops to yearn.
That night when I could fall asleep,
Just floating in my own frivolous fantasies.
I have been hollow lately,
My love has now given way to something sombre.
"Something disquieted", as my friend once said,
"Some shackled bruises waiting to ache again."
I know not what that meant,
For my pain seemed forthright and relentless.
I yearned for days and nights,
I lay stone sober,
Bottles and ashtrays collected dust.
I knew not how to drown my sorrows,
In poisons of a darker potion.
I knew not when to blow away,
My sadness in puffs of cigarettes by the fireplace.
These scars still have its anger,
Those days I tried to quiet my loquacious mind.
Yet here I am somehow benumbed,
Wallowing no more in those sordid memories.
Yesterday has now sailed away,
The seas are calm and-
The sun has now shown its grace.
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